End of August

I've been exchanging email with the agency again - I'm wondering how I will wait for a referral if I can't even wait 13 days for someone to turn down a 2007 spot... they've said that most likely I will get it, since they still haven't gotten a response (how that happens, I'll never understand). I'd be dancing and screaming yippee!!! if the boards hadn't been full of rumors about a change in China's adoption policy.

The rumors boil down to : No singles will be allowed to submit paperwork to adopt any child (SN or NSN) after 12/31/2006. What will the actual rule change be? No one knows... who knows if there will even be a rule change? Others are saying that rumors like this appear every year. However, with referral times stretching to 13 months, and the increasing numbers of adoptions by two-parent families, I guess they would feel that some type of restriction would have to be put into place.

What will I do if they do ban single adoptions? At this point I don't know... it already seems like, two steps back for every step forward.

Adding to the stress is telling my father this weekend. He's been in Alaska for the past 3 months and while giving 3000 miles of space while he mulls it over did seem like a good idea... it also sounded like the chicken way out. I know that he won't exactly be on board with the idea, mostly because of financial reasons - it's too expensive (children in general), too much responsibility and I won't have enough time to do it right being a single mother. All things that I continue wrestle with on a daily basis. Plus at this point, there isn't really anything to tell him.