Everyone always talks about signs... "this happened, and it was sign," "I saw this picture and it was a sign that my baby was in China," and so on. I'm not really big on signs. Or rather, I'm not really good at interpreting signs. Or making decisions. Which is probably why I'm always wondering if if something is a sign in order to help me make a choice. A choice I'm afraid will be wrong.
Lately, I think I've been getting signs on a particular choice - moving to the foster-adopt route. First there was the phone call. Then there are the co-workers who are doing foster-adopt (giving me an inside scoop on all the horror stories... good sign or bad?). Finally, yesterday two collegues and I had quite the conversation about the number of babies being surrendered/removed from homes in the area and the despotic people gaining foster liscences. Again, is this a good sign or bad a one? Is it a sign at all? Am I just grasping at straws because one month into the wait I've gone crazy? Seriously, I'm obessed with the idea that there might actually be signs, but I'm too stupid-chicken-practical to take notice. Where is Sylvia Brown when I need here?
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I'm so incredibly bad at recognizing signs, too. I look for them, but then I question it.
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I will think something is a sign and then talk myself out of it. Time and time again. So I kinda know what you're feeling. I've always been interested in the foster/adopt route to momhood too, but I think I can only handle one thing at a time! I also thought I'd be a nun if my ex died, and he divorced me, and now I think maybe not. But then, I don't know, if the adoption falls through...
waiting for a sign on that. ha.
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